Sunday, May 10, 2015

Reflection

Looking back on my project, there are some things that I'm really proud of, but defiantly some parts I should have put more work into.

I am very happy with how my project grew and changed over the year.  I began the year with my project centered around a trip to India, and as I did research,  I became increasingly interested in the meditative practices I will be a part of.  I found my focus shift more to the practices and using them as an outlet of stress than to my planning.  This couldn't have been better timed, because this year has been extremely busy, and the meditation has really helped me push through it without going insane.  It's been an unexpected but welcome benefit of 20 Time, and one I hope to continue past this year.

While my focus shifted to spirituality, it also shifted away from planning (maybe why I've been so relaxed. . . ).  I regret not being more active in making school arrangements for my trip.  Looking back, it would have made it a lot easier to talk to school administrators and counselors about missing so much school earlier, and I'm going to have to work harder to get it cleared now.  I also neglected fundraising more than I would have liked to.  I have started to save up and am getting a job this summer to add to my funds, but haven't started crowd funding or fundraising through my church yet.  My procrastination in planning means more work for me over the next few months, and I wish I had done more during the year.

Even through the procrastination, I feel that I have grown immensely.  I have learned to better handle my stress, which is no small feat.  I have burdened myself with a very heavy schedule lately, and knowing that I can fall back on reflection and meditation has made me slower to freak out and more apt to slow down and think.  Though it was not the original plan for my project, I'm glad that I ended up here rather than stressed but planned out.

20 Time may not have left me where I though it would, and I still have a long way to go on my original goal, but to me it has been a great growing experience and has given me a knew view of how I learn.